Killing me Softly...

I really dont know wat to do... wether to face the fact or... keep trying. The stuff you told me just now, killed me softly. I cant stop now, although u want me to. Im so sorry for being annoying. Thats wat you said. And when you told me that I felt like bashing my head on the wall... What have I done? I've finally earned your trust, but failed to earn your love. Feel like a clown who is being stomped by his own elephant... circus of love... in which mine has no end.

Me:
Missing you....

She:
eh dont

Me:
no "donts"
cant stop

She:
i told you before ad
i dont love you
so dont miss me
please
you'll hurt yourself

Me:
I dont believe u dont love me at all
I thnk u juz dun trust me

She:
then you should believe it
it's not about trust
nothing to do with trust
i do trust you
but i dont love you

Me:
dat day u told me u dun trust me... now ur telling me u dun love me but u trust me... argh

She:
i dont trust you about what

Me:
last time u said "I still dont trust you"

She:
i didnt trust you about you loving me
but now i can see that it's quite true
but still i dont love you

Me:
thanks for the trust...

She:
i'm sorry

Me:
but I still cant belive u dun love me at all

She:
you used to be fun to chat with
but now
there's like nothing to talk about
i dont like chatting with you anymore, it's not fun anymore
=|

(Diz is d part dat got me lifeless... I am so sorry)

Me:
wah
whyla?
wat did i do wrong?

She:
sorry, i'm just saying what i feel

Me:
its okay

She:
i dont know
umm
what we used to chat was fun

Me:
please tell where am i making u uncomfortable

She:
but now it's just boring and annoying
i dont know

Me:
oh
sorry

She:
no i'm sorry
=|

Me:
No
I duno
since when did you feel like dz?

She:
since i got my internet connection back i guess
since you thought that i love you
but i really dont
i like just as a friend only
like you*

Me:
dats why u find annoying?

She:
probably

Me:
so sorry

She:
it's ok

Me:
becoz I felt like u unconciously love me...

She:
i'm sorry too
i just want to make this clear
coz i dont want you to go too deep
creating a false feeling

Me:
u did held my hands... and also leaned on my shoulders... sent me all d wrong messages

She:
i'm sorry

Me:
I dont think I can stop loving....
sorry to say that...

She:
just dont think about it too much
it will fade away
i'm sorry you have to meet me, i'm sorry i'm hurting you
i feel so bad

Me:
hey... stop
I love you... never felt your hurting me
Now I am angry at myslef
self*

She:
dont

Me:
to think that I annoyed u
shit

She:
you'll make me feel worse
so dont feel angry at yourself

Me:
Im so sorry...

She:
dont
it's ok

Me:
haiz...
I may sound stupid saying dz again but I love you a lot... not gona fade for a long time...

She:
thank you
but i'm sorry
i cant return your love

Me:
i will juz hope your feelings towards can change by time... if mine didnt
n try to be your best fren
btw pls dun feel sad or angry
Im happy dat I met u

She:
nah i'm not sad or angry
=]
i'm glad to get to know you too

Me:
thnks...
N thanks lot telling me about me being annoying
now I can change
N u knw wat? I actually managed to annoy someone other then my mum
n sister
hahaha

She:
lol
thanks a lot

Me:
for being annoying?
Lol

She says:
haha jk

Someone please tell me... what aM I doing wrong? (beside posting our conversation)... I want her so bad... there is no way I am letting go so fast... and I dont want to hurt her doing this... I need her...